Student:
Pranam, Gurudev. Pranam. Gurudev, even though our channel Gupta Sadhak Shyama Khyapa has crossed 50k subscribers, people still have a question. They haven't quite received an explanation for the term Gupta Sadhak (Secret Practitioner). If you could explain this...
Guru:
Look, those who are asking this question are not right, because spiritual practice (Sadhana) must be done secretly. You can never find God or practice Sadhana by beating a drum in public. One must be detached from people.
Guru:
I was a Gupta (hidden) practitioner for 22 yearsâno, 22.5 years. I was very hidden; I didn't meet anyone, and no one around me knew that I practiced Sadhana. No one knew. But later, what happened was that people slowly found out through YouTube.
Guru:
I gave diksha (initiation) to someone named Joy Chakraborty. He was in a lot of trouble. After his initiation, his problems were resolved. After that, he said to me, "You have so much knowledge; if you share it, people will benefit."
Guru:
I said, "Yes, I have studied a lot, there is certainly knowledge." He suggested I say a few things on YouTube. I thought about it. I didn't know anything about YouTube back then; I had no fixed idea and never watched YouTube.
Guru:
Since 2017, I haven't watched YouTube or anything else. I stay with Ma (the Goddess). To be honest, I didn't like meeting people, and I still don't. But I am doing this now because it is Ma's order. It is her instruction that I must do this.
Guru:
Just like in the case of Bama Khyapa, he practiced a lot of Sadhana for Ma. A time came when Ma ordered him, "Do good for the people." Bama Khyapa is my guru. He used to get very annoyed when he saw people.
Guru:
He even expressed his frustration to Ma, which you can find in books or moviesâhow helpless he felt when Ma told him his job was to look after people. If you can't do it, leave me, she said. He was forced to agree, but he even cursed Ma out of frustration.
Guru:
Now, about our situation: Ma kept me hidden until I was ready. I used to practice Kali Sadhana. Ma Kali is there, and there is still a temple where she resides. I spent my days and nights there in meditation. The cremation ground (Shmashan) was nearby, so I took refuge there as well.
Guru:
It was Ma's grace. I can't explain how it happened. I could have gone elsewhere, but I wouldn't have found a cremation ground like that. To me, that place is like molten gold. I got bothâI found Ma and I found the cremation ground. For 22.5 years, I practiced in a closed room.
Guru:
Only a couple of people knew. They would occasionally come by to offer respects. This was many years ago. Then, after Joy Chakraborty's initiation, he suggested sharing this knowledge. Initially, I refused. But later I told him, "Come back, I will think about it."
Guru:
I thought it might be Ma's game. Whatever I do, I ask Ma first. Ma said, "Yes, you have to give this." As soon as I started, people from all over the world began to come. Today, it's overwhelming. Now I even scold Ma day and night!
Guru:
This is what happens. Who can handle so many people and their demands? It's not possible for a person like me. But since Ma is here, I have great support. If I do 20% of the work, Ma does 80%. For everyone who comes, I work for themâsome 40%, some 20%âand then I tell Ma to do the rest.
Guru:
Whoever comes here, I tell them to go to Ma. Offer your respects and tell her your problems. I have given the initial push. Ma is there. I do 40%, and the rest she handles. I cannot overstep her; it's impossible.
Guru:
Today, so many people are benefiting. I see them coming. Why else would they come? I don't take money here, nor do I run a business. These two things are forbidden. It is written at the temple: "Do not give a single rupee in this temple."
Guru:
I don't want to pollute Ma's sacred abode with money. I don't take a single penny. People who have come from abroad, like Australia, have given me "certificates" saying, "You are the correct man." One man came recently and said, "I don't care if you've done Tantra Sadhana or not, you are an honest man."
Guru:
This honesty is a symbol I have carried for a long time. I sacrificed many temptations to remain Gupta (hidden). I didn't come out at all. Only a few people would come. Some came in distress 25 or 30 years ago, and I helped them.
Guru:
Back then, I used to stay ulanga (without clothes). I didn't even have a cloth on my body because I was worshiping Ma that way. The room where I attained success still existsâit's 6 feet by 6 feet. If you close the door and the window, you lose all connection with the world.
Guru:
I practiced there for 22.5 years. Then Ma appeared, and many things happened. It's better not to talk about it. Ma turned from clay to stone, and so on. I stayed hidden; even people in my neighborhood didn't know. Some know now because of YouTube.
Guru:
They found out I am a devotee of Ma. You cannot reach God by showing off. You have to stay miles away from people. Otherwise, you won't find God or success. To achieve that, you must live as a Sannyasi. I was a Sannyasi for 22 years.
Guru:
For about 4 or 5 years, I worshiped without clothes. Now that people come, I can't do that. I wear this pajama-panjabi; this has been my dress for a long time. I worship this way so people don't know. I discarded red clothes and rings a long time ago.
Guru:
I saw that rings and red clothes are ripu (internal enemies/obsessions). As long as you hold onto these, nothing will happen. You must sacrifice them. They bring ego, and the planets surround you even faster. Eventually, you start taking money and you are finished.
Guru:
That is why it's written not to give money here. I've seen that those who took money did not survive. I can guarantee that. Those who grew up before my eyes are all gone. They practiced Tantra, I met them, but they didn't live long.
Guru:
In this cremation ground, there were at least 18-20 tantriks. I saw them all die. No one is left to even light a lamp. I am still here, flickering like a small light. I don't know how long I will stay. I keep people, money, and God separate.
Guru:
Whoever comes, I tell them to go to Ma. I do 40%, and Ma does 60%. Ma is alive (Jivanta). As long as a Sadhak (practitioner) stays in a temple, Ma remains awake. If the Sadhak leaves, Ma leaves too. The idol remains, but the essence is gone.
Guru:
Look at places like Dakshineswar or Tarapith today. Ramakrishna is not there, Bama Khyapa is not there, Tailanga Swami is not there, but the crowds are huge. The vibration they left behind will last for another 1,000 years.
Guru:
Because of that vibration, people get better just by coming there, whether the saint is physically there or not. I am creating such a vibration here so that people get better even if I am not around. I will have to leave one day, but I want to leave that behind.
Guru:
These saints become immortal. People worship them and chant their names. All great men have left such vibrations. I will also have to go, but I've made sure this place will continue to heal people.
Guru:
Then there are uttarsuri (successors). Bama Khyapa had them, Ramakrishna had them. They stay as long as they live and look after Ma. But for the general public, this is hard to understand. Their satisfaction is not God or Ma, but the Guru.
Guru:
We say, "We have given what we could; now call upon Ma." A few people do this; I've seen some come daily after their initiation. This is what happens. Look at the crowds at Dakshineswar or Tarapith or Kashi Vishwanath.
Guru:
Even in the jail cell where Sri Aurobindo stayed, they say a light still emanates. Many have seen it. That room is kept locked. The vibration he created is still there. Science may advance, but that vibration remains.
Guru:
Sadhaks leave that behind. That is why it must be done secretly. If you don't do it secretly, other problems arise, and God doesn't show mercy. God wants you to stay away from the lure of money. God is also looking for a good person, just as you look for a good Guru.
Guru:
That is the tradition of staying hidden. I was hidden for 22.5 years. I have only been open for 2 or 3 years since I initiated Joy Chakraborty. This might be Ma's game. You can't hide power forever; it will burst out one day.
Guru:
I was Gupta (hidden) before, and I will remain Gupta. As long as I live, this nameâGupta Sadhak Shyama Khyapaâwill stay. This is something given by the people. You can't just take a title like Giri, Puri, or Bharati unless it is given.
Guru:
My first predecessor was Bama Khyapa. The second was Nigamananda. The third was a Guru from Siguri Ashram. I might be the fourth. People will decide that; I don't need to. These are very secret matters that Ma handles.
Guru:
You must practice secretly. If you show off, you will never find Ma. If you can do it in a secret room for 15-20 years, you won't have to look back. Everything will come to you. I found my Guru, Bama Khyapa, long after he passed away.
Guru:
Since then, I haven't had to look back. I told him, "Baba, you showed so many miracles to people. Give me something so I can help people, but I won't take anything in return." I asked him for this repeatedly.
Guru:
This is called Vibhuti (spiritual power). I asked for it, and he gave it. Many miraculous things have happened to people who come to me. I don't use it for wrong purposes. I scold people, I say bad things, I even send some away based on their karma.
Guru:
Everything is an accumulation of sins. I don't see everyone. I use various ways to send some people away. Others I see and do what Ma instructs. If I stop seeing people, Ma will take away my power.
Guru:
That's why I try to stay hidden as much as possible. This dress you see is my only dress. I don't wear red, black, or yellow; they contain ripu. Money also contains ripu. I was very happy when that man from Australia called me an honest person.
Guru:
Honesty is a great gain. Without honesty, God won't show mercy. Truth is God. You must always think, "I am honest," and God stays with the honest. Anyway, it's time to go. A book is coming out tomorrow; I'm waiting for it.
Guru:
My time is also coming to an end. I might go somewhere. Death can happen anytime. I've done what I could. Ma is sitting here; she will decide.
Student:
So, viewers, you heard from Gurudev himself why he has this name.
Guru:
Yes, so there is no more confusion. People ask why I am Gupta. I might become hidden again; I might not have contact with anyone.
Guru:
That's a matter for later. Another thing is, the time has come to leave Ma and this world's attachment. Now it's time for a calculation: what I gave to Ma and what Ma gave to me. This calculation is intense for every Sadhak.
Guru:
This happens at the endâthe giving and taking. I sit before Ma for this. What has she given me after all these years of calling her? And what have I given her? This is a private matter. There is no financial matter here, just a spiritual giving and taking. You can't involve others in this. This is between Ma and me.
Guru:
I even have to decide where I will be born nextâwhether I will have a family or where I will stay. These are very secret things. It's my connection with Ma. I gave so much, and she gave so much. This is the end for a Sadhak.
Student:
Pranam, Gurudev.
Guru:
Be well, be well.