Devotee:
Pranam, Gurudev.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Pranam.
Devotee:
Gurudev, I am here today with a question from one of your devotees. In the previous video, a person named Chitra Nag commented, asking: "Do you feel the vibration of God?" I would appreciate it if you could answer this.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Yes, I certainly feel it. I definitely do, and there is no doubt about it. You see, to feel a vibration, you have to "touch" it; it won't happen otherwise. Look at an electric wire—it doesn't look like anything special, but if you touch it, you'll know there's a current.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
As long as you are just looking at Him or observing Him from a distance, you won't be able to understand. But His vibration is definitely there. His movements are there; His tears and His laughter are there. We have seen these things. We have seen Her smile, Her tears, Her grief, and Her joy—She has it all. To know this, you have to get very close to Her. You have to establish a relationship like that of a mother and son, or a mother and daughter. You have to stay close for a long time. Only then can you understand that She has pain, She has sorrow, She has laughter, and She has tears. You can even feel Her movements.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
This comes from staying together for a long time. If you observe Her day and night, you will understand that Her movements are real, as is Her grief. He created this world, and it is through Him that this world exists. When people die or when nature acts up, you may not have seen His grief, but if you saw it, you would understand.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Similarly, when someone very close to Her leaves, tears can be seen in Her eyes. Especially for those who are seekers, who sit beside the Mother, who are close to Her and observe Her day and night—I can say with certainty that Her movements can be felt.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
But until you come close to Her, you won't understand anything. She may seem like an idol made of clay and straw, but She moves, Her face changes, She has tears in Her eyes, and She has tears of joy. You have to stay with Her for a long time to observe this. Since She is made of clay, She must be "awakened." Life must be breathed into Her (Pran Pratishtha). One must observe Her and perform Japa, Tapa, and Puja (chanting, austerities, and worship) daily. Only then will you see Her movements.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
I would say that you can feel it, and I can too. Anyone can, if a connection is established. When your soul connects with Her soul, and Her soul enters yours, then you feel that vibration. It's a reciprocal thing. You give Her something, and She gives you something back. This is something to be seen; it's not about clay or stone. Movements can be felt. We have felt it many times.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
We stay here day and night. If I go away for a day, the Mother's face becomes heavy (gloomy). People see it and tell me, "Mother's face is heavy; She isn't smiling."
Devotee:
Yes, Gurudev, we have all seen this. When you were unwell and couldn't come for two days, Her face was heavy. Many people noticed that Her eyes were glistening with tears.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Many people told me that. When a loved one moves away or goes far, there is a mental toll. Not everyone understands this grief. You have been with the Mother for a long time, so perhaps you can perceive that something is there. It's wrong to say there is nothing. The Mother has movements, She has tears, She has laughter, and She has sorrow. These must be perceived. When your soul merges with Hers, you will feel it. Otherwise, you will just see a clay idol. But those who are involved with Her, who are very close, feel it.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Even if I go somewhere, Her face becomes heavy. When I return, you see Her smiling again. You have seen it many times and told me about it. Everything happens. It's like the electricity in a wire—you don't know it's there until you touch it. You won't feel it just by standing near it. But if you touch it, you feel the current and the vibration.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
God is the same. His vibration is there and can be felt if one loves Her like a son loves his mother, or a daughter loves her mother. This bond is the real thing. My birth mother and this Mother of clay are the same; there is no difference. Just like my birth mother, this Mother also feels sorrow and joy.
Devotee:
Gurudev, that was about Her emotions and behavior. Have you ever felt the Mother's touch?
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Yes, I have. She doesn't come in front of me; She blesses me from behind. I can feel it. When I sit for Japa or Puja, I can feel Mother standing behind me, blessing me or placing Her hand on me. I feel it.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
If this were to happen more often, one might get scared or have various reactions, but we have become accustomed to it. We feel that someone is behind us, whoever it may be. We feel that touch. Then we think, "Okay, Mother is here, standing behind me."
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Her aura and light cannot be described in words. Even Lord Shiva himself could not describe Her form. So, the Mother doesn't do anything from the front; She does everything from behind. Since we don't see it, we say God doesn't exist or doesn't answer our prayers. But something is happening; when you call out to God, something happens behind the scenes, though you may not perceive it.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
It is happening. One just has to develop that inner perception. These feelings are powerful. I have seen them, felt Her touch, and Her vibration. There is no doubt about it. I have been practicing this for 36 years, leaving my home and everything behind.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Just as no one looks after me at home, the Mother looks after me 24/7. Whatever I need, She fulfills it. I don't really ask for anything, but if I feel a desire for something, She provides it through someone. She doesn't come Herself, but She sends it through someone. Sometimes I think to myself, "I just thought of this, and here it is." This happens. My birth mother and this Mother are the same. She also moves, cries, laughs, and feels pain.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
People live with these three things: joy, sorrow, and suffering. These are part of human life. Those who are deeply connected with the Mother, She even increases their lifespan. Some live for 100 years, some for 150. Mother provides that too. But only a true seeker knows this. They feel it and understand Her movements.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Once, I even tied a chain around the Mother's feet. Do you know why? There was a lot of criticism about it, but I did it.
Devotee:
You said you noticed some "disobedience" in Her movements.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Yes, I saw some unusual movements, so I tied Her feet with a chain. Later, I removed the chain upon Her instruction. So, God definitely exists; otherwise, why would I tie Her feet? Her movements and Her gestures—I didn't like some of them at that time.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Common people might not understand this and might criticize me, but my Mother is mine. She isn't for anyone else in that specific sense. Everyone says the Mother belongs to them and She does good for them—I accept that. But this personal perception is something not everyone can have. I have felt it.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
The Mother exists, Her vibration is felt, and Her touch is felt. It's a deep relationship—Her relationship with me and no one else. People come and see a clay idol, they say She looks beautiful, and they offer prayers. But people like us perceive Her differently. We hear Her, we understand Her movements and Her speech. I can even understand what She wants to eat. Sometimes I bring different kinds of food for Her—sour, spicy, sweet—whatever She desires.
Devotee:
There is no difference between one's birth mother and this Mother. Just as a birth mother makes requests to her son, this Mother also makes requests.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Exactly. Who else will She go to? She will come to Her son. Her love and devotion never go in vain. People tell me, "I cried so much, I called out to God until my tears dried up, but nothing happened." Well, perhaps there was a flaw in their devotion. Also, there's the matter of Papa and Punya (sin and merit). If you have committed many sins and then come to cry before the Mother, She might not show Herself. That needs to be rectified first. This doesn't happen at an old age; it starts from a young age.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
So, to Chitra Nag, I say: everything exists. You may not perceive it yet, perhaps due to some personal shortcomings or because you haven't found the path, but I do. I thank Chitra Nag for the question; it's a very good one. People often don't want to admit these things and call them "frauds." But I am telling you the truth: everything is there. You might not be feeling Her touch or Her love, but we are. We are receiving the Mother's affection in abundance. What Her love is, I feel it in every breath. My birth mother is gone, but I don't feel She is gone. This Mother provides everything for me.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
To an ordinary person, this might seem vague or fraudulent, but I am telling you: She is there, and Her vibration can be felt. Stay well.
Devotee:
Pranam, Gurudev.
Guru Shyama Khyapa:
Bless you.